So I want to be completely honest on my account and more real so here goes , last week someone said to me that I put this lifestyle before my children's needs and that it's taken over my life , it's became an obsession, I explained that it's a lifestyle so it is a part of my daily life this broke my heart I was very upset and felt that I was made out to be a bad mum I even questioned myself as a mother and if I was doing right by my children , yes I workout 4/5 times a week I eat well , this makes me feel happy , I have more energy to run around with my children, it helps keep my mind happy and I believe it makes me a much better mother because I am showing them a healthy lifestyle and how important it is to keep active and they can see how happy mummy is no matter what my children come first if mummy's working out and one of my girls is upset I stop make sure they are okay and I then carry on with my workout , my children are loved so much more then anything there needs come before my own 💖💖💖 #rwlfitties#resultswithlucy#mychildrencomefirst#mybabygirls#fitmumsofinsta#fitbusymumslife#workhardgetresults#workoutathome#healthyfamily#happychildren#happymum
These are the only lights we saw and the blue under the sea ones where pretty cool.
Sadly we didn't last too long and didn't see many of the lights as the crowding got way to stressful and after being out all day I was starting to get tired and was finding it a bit harder to use my dbt skills.
There was one point when I had this massive serge of emotion and just wanted to react emotionally so I quickly ripped off my scarf and opened my coat to cool myself down in the hope it would calm me down, I did engage in some undesired behaviours but it didn't last longer than 15min and I was working so hard on my breathing and radical acceptance that it as how it as in that moment and there was nothing I could do to change the past. I had a real feeling of sadness after the anger had subsided and It was only then I noticed that I was actually alot calmer and would prefer the sadness over overwhelming sadness and anger. These DBT skills are really making a difference in my life and it makes me feel really proud as I know that wouldn't be the case if I wasn't working so hard on them between groups/one to ones.